Today at about 1:15pm, I went to the washroom at work, and saw a bright red streak on my pantyliner. When I dabbed with the TP, there was more.
I wanted to cry. I had no tears. So I screamed instead.
Screamed for about 30 minutes while bright blood dripped out of me. Enough to leave coin-sized dollops on the TP. Sometimes it would come close to stopping, and then start again. Around 1:45, it stopped and I limped back to my classroom (students were gone home). I found my co-teacher and the tears.
I called Mr. Turtle, and then the Health information line. The nurse calmed me a little, and said to see a doctor within 72 hours. So, Mr. Turtle and I went to the Urgent Care centre.
The examining doctor said the bleeding was definitely more than spotting, but was not considered heavy bleeding. I have not had any more bright red bleeding for a few hours. Some more blood came out when she did the exam, but it was brown. No clots, no cramps or pain. Well, no physical pain.
The doctor said that 25% of women have bleeding in first trimester. 50% of them go on to miscarry. She could not say which 50% I might be in.
They drew blood for a beta and blood typing.
I have an ultrasound scheduled for tomorrow. The requisition says "Possible Ectopic and Threatened Abortion."
I am trying to stay calm. I know there are so many varieties of utter misery I could be experiencing right now. I'm trying not to look it in the face.
Any prayers. Or hope, Or anything. Or virtual kleenex for ugly cry.