Monday, 17 August 2015
#Microblog Mondays: The Winds of Change
I have most of a "day in the life" post written from last week. I wanted to capture a bit of our lazy (by comparison) summer life before it was time to go back to work (next week! Whaaaaaat!) and so many things change. I'll try to post that entry this week.
Meanwhile it's already feeling out of date. Sigh. AJ and I are trying out a new routine today. It wasn't entirely my idea. Oh, I knew we have to make some changes, but I probably would have put it off until tomorrow, or some other day. But at 6:00am AJ decided that she wasn't going back to sleep, and no boob or bouncy ball chair was going to change her mind. It occurred to my befuddled mind that hey, we're going to have to learn to start our day at 6:00am anyway, so why not begin now. So we got up and made some breakfast with whatever food is left in the house after a week away (not much). AJ of course turned out to be not interested in anything except being cuddled by mom and walked around the house, which is a perfectly logical thing to want at 6am, although not perhaps entirely amenable to our new schedule.
Stuff I've already learned: I need to find some way to have breakfast ready for us in the morning, with minimal (very minimal) preparation. The majority of my "get ready" time is taken up with food preparation, and even a simple breakfast seems to have too many steps involved. But not eating breakfast is a recipe for disaster. I've been making freezer breakfasts for Mr. Turtle to take to work (that was his birthday present) but I'm not sure I'm into that. I think I would like to try slow cooker breakfast. I love the idea of something cooking all night and being ready and tasty in the morning.
I actually haven't been too sad or worried in the past couple of months about going back to work. There's a few reasons for this, I think. One, since I'm changing jobs I have a vaguer idea of how my first few weeks will look. Probably it will be quite similar to what it has been in the past (I hope so, actually) but still I can't imagine everything as concretely, which makes it all a little less real. Right now I just know I have an empty classroom with whatever stuff my new colleague saw fit to order for me or put in my room (everything she didn't want anymore, presumably). This week I will take a few hours to sort through it and make a list of a few other things I need to pick up. I will not be starting the year with a perfectly decorated classroom, but I'm OK with that. I'm not a classroom decorator anyway; I personally never put anything up that isn't student work or an educational tool. My old room had bulletin board borders and motivational posters and a paint job because the educational assistants at the time liked to do that sort of thing. (I find motivational posters annoying.) Also, I know very little so far about my new students, but apparently one of them likes to rip things off the wall when he gets angry at the world. So, minimal prettyfication. But still, there are little things that make the day go easier that it's good to have ready in advance: stuff like cleaning supplies, fidgety toys (for teacher as well as students) and easy activities such as playing cards, small jigsaw puzzles, etc.
I am also So. Freaking. Relieved. that AJ has a daycare spot for September. We didn't know if she would until the beginning of August. I am not looking forward to being away from her but I was so worried that our childcare plans would fall through, which would have just made everything more stressful and hassled. We went on the wait list for one daycare centre in January. It seems to be common practice now to go on a wait list when you are pregnant, but that was not where my mind was during pregnancy. Some people even go on the wait list before they conceive. Of course if we had done that (four years ago) we would have been top of the list for sure (insert eye roll and sarcastic laugh here). We really liked this daycare, and although we meant to research a Plan B it somehow never happened. But we got lucky and despite not being the best planners ever, AJ has a spot. My relief about this has made me feel better about the whole transition. What does feel weird is that the daycare reminds me so much of a school. How can I be sending my baby off to school already?! But I'm hoping that she will (mostly) enjoy the stimulating environment and being around other babies. AJ hasn't spent much time around other babies but she loves it when she does.
Well, so far I have managed to keep AJ awake for almost 3 hours, and put her down for a nap without breastfeeding her. Score. (She still gets bouncy ball chair and sleep sheep. Bouncy ball chair is the closest thing I have to a workout. Snort laugh.) As I work through my day I'm creating a parallel "ideal" schedule, not that I expect us to be on it right away, but I'll need something to give to Mr. Turtle next week when he starts parental leave, and to the daycare centre. Another way I'm coping with the transition is by focusing on minutiae. I have two sides to my personality; one is intuitive, spontaneous, dreamy (the abstract side of the abstract-concrete binary). The other side is the opposite: I organize, schedule, plan, and contingency-plan almost obsessively. I can stress myself out doing this but sometimes it's kind of soothing. Focusing on details allows me to sidestep my anxiety and sometimes over-active imagination and feel some personal control.
On with my day now! I'm caught up with my comment replies (see previous entries) and will try to find some time to read everyone else's updates. Because that's part of my routine too and I don't want everything to change!
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