Saturday, 22 February 2014

Letting go

I'm bleeding heavily now. I know this is the end of it. (Update: actually it wasn't....see here and here and here)

At the Urgent Care today, one of the nurses said I just have to trust my body. My body knows what to do. She is right; I just have to trust my body.

I don't want to think of anything. I just want Mr. Turtle to hold me and let the tears come when they have to.

Thank you for your support, and for sharing in those few days of happiness. I wish this wasn't so hard. For me, for everyone.

I'll update when I can.
With love, Turtle


  1. Oh Turtle, no, I am so sorry :( I have been checking for updates to see how you're doing. This is just so unfair and devastating. I will be thinking of you and sending thoughts of hope and peace.

  2. Oh my, you have been on an awful roller coaster of emotions. I wish there was a way to ease your pain. It's absolutely heart breaking what you are going through. Hope Mr. Turtle holds you tight. Sending some peace your way.

  3. Oh no. I'm so very sorry. It would have been such a wonderful gift, after that cancelled cycle, to get your baby "naturally" after all. And now this turn of events. So mean. Sending love and hugs.

  4. Oh god. I'm just catching up. I'm so very, very sorry. It wasn't supposed to turn out this way. This is a awful. I hope you find peace soon. And we're here, holding you up until you do. Sending, light, love, and hugs.

  5. Turtle, I'm so sorry. This is just the cruelest twist of fate, to have lost hope and then have a miracle and then this. I am so pissed off at the universe right now. I wish I could be there to add to the hugs and comfort. Take good care of yourselves.

  6. Oh sweet girl, I'm so sorry to hear this. hugging you from Texas!

  7. I am so so sorry... I wish words or actions or anything could change things. How the universe could give you such a miracle of hope and then ask you to go through this... I am just so so sorry. May you have whatever you need to make these impossible days slightly more bearable. A safe place to cry. Kind hearted medical folks. Quiet thoughts. Whatever it is that helps you, may you have it. Sending you hugs and love.